GONE TO SHIT....

Got in a car wreck. Got the whiplash. Back hurts, missed work, but back again. Got a letter from the landlord yesterday. Of course it's a rent increase letter. Exceptin' I still don't have heat, don't have AC, bathroom is falling in again, roof leaking again, water heater falling in again.... cuz you know - floors need replaced and such - oh and the bathtub is now falling apart. I called him and asked him if he planned on fixing anything. He says: "I haven't heard from you for 2 years!" and I'm like: "You must have forgotten that last Christmas you were over here letting us know that your appraiser would be stopping by for a visit, and telling us how we needed to hide the space heaters." And of course we talked about allllllll the stuff then and you said you would get to it some time...... uhhhh huh.

Found out that thanks to my new job.... I owe $1200 in State and Federal taxes this year. On top of what we already paid in. Yay. You folks enjoy those $10,000 tax refunds now.... have fun on your cruise, and I hope you like your new 50billion inch TV. Consider it a gift. From me. FUCK!

Been going to physical therapy. Not working. Costs a lot though.

My best friends Dad is passing. He may have gone in the night, don't know yet. Hospice has been caring for him, and she called me last night to let me know that he's en route to eternity. She was there for me every waking minute of every single day when my Dad took his journey. I have to work all the time, so I can't even return her love and caring. This aches me.

I have to/get to go to California next week. I leave on Wednesday and won't be back until Saturday night. My first business trip ever. I am trippin' a little on the plane thing. Ok, a lot on the plane thing. Stupid, I know. I will be in Orange County, right by Laguna Beach. The last time I was in California, I was not too far away, in Long Beach, only then I was homeless and sleeping underneath a bridge. This should be a step up, since this time I will be staying at the Hilton....

So much for the whole "positive 2012 goal" eh?

We live in a cold dark world with venom in it's fangs.
You can spit it in my face but I know I'll be ok
It's on the attack. It's a war, It's a game.
A ball and chain chew my arm off to get away
Don't fight, or it deny it, invite it cause when it ..

Feels like a kick in the teeth, I can take it.
Throw your stones and you won't see me break it.
Say what you want, take your shots.
You're setting me free with one more kick in the teeth
(Na na na na na)
Kick in the Teeth (na na na na na na)

I gotta say thanks cause you kick me when im down
I'm bleeding out the mouth.
I hope you know I'm stronger now.
I'm taking the hate, I'm turning it all around.
I wont go down 'til I'm six feet underground.
Dont fight, or it deny it, invite it, cause when it ...

Feels like a kick in the teeth, I can take it.
Throw your stones and you won't see me break it.

Say what you want, take your shots.
You're setting me free with one more kick in the teeth
(na na na na na )
Kick in the teeth (na na na na na)

What doesnt kill me only, will make me stronger in my head
In my head

Cause when it
Feels like a kick in the teeth, I can take it.
Throw your stones and you won't see me break it.
Say what you want, take your shots
You're setting me free with one more kick in the teeth
(na na na na na )
Kick in the teeth
(na na na na na)
Say what you want. Take your shots.
You're setting me free with one more kick in the. teeth
(na na na na na)
Kick in the teeth (na na na na na)
Kick in the teeth (na na na na na)
Kick in the teeth (na na na na na)

~Papa Roach~
Kick In The Teeth

BLAH BLAH BLUB

oOo

Eeets a tree. A bokeh tree. Mmm hmmm.

A trip down memory lane. Brought desire for olden times. Si!
I miss the craazie people.
We used to have so much fun!!

Sunday Sucks.

WHY?

Why do people have to be so unkind to one another? We only get one journey through this life, and I think it's too short to be so mean and hateful. I just don't understand it......

IT MUST BE MONDAY.....

I have an asstastic zit right on the top of my nose. (Thank you for that new word Miss Nikki...) I thought this issue would have disappeared with menopause. I guess not. So now I get to go to work like this - looking like Rudolph. Yay....
It's going to be another 1100000 degree day outside. Looking forward to that too. I have been struggling with wanting to move from this house - I don't really want to face another winter with no heat. I wish I could just bottle up the crap that's happening outside and just release a gallon of it every couple of days when it's cold out. I have even thought about just buying one of those pentair heat pumps myself, and then taking it with us when we move. If we ever move. There is really nothing any better to rent in this town. An apartment I guess. But I love my neighbors, love my yard, and holy cow do I have a ton of junk to move when I do. Six years of life - not looking forward to packing that up......


Such random things that run through my head at 4 am.... missing my Dad. The butterflies are here, and it's almost been 2 years now since he's been gone. I wish I could tell him all this stuff - on the porch, watching the sun come up, with coffee. Like the good ol' days....

SUMMER.....

This is a photo I took at the recent "Bullmania" event I attended this weekend....

This summer, I have taken my children to two rodeo events. The first one - well it was our first real one ever. Both were a lot of fun, very exciting, and I have never seen so much horse equipment in my life!! I would have to say the same about the poor broken cowboys. I don't believe I have ever seen that many beat up people all gathered in the same place before. While the show was mostly entertaining, there were a couple of times I found myself gripping the bottom of my chair in complete anxiety. The first time, one of the bullfighters got mangled and knocked out by a bull, and the second time, a cowboy got thrown off his bull, trampled by it, and knocked around some more. He lie there, perfectly still on the ground, for far too long. I honestly thought he was dead. That - was distressing to me, not entertaining.
On the ride home, I found myself wondering why these boys do this kind of thing. I guess it's mostly for the money, but I can't believe anyone would find risking your life for a few bucks to be a good thing. I mean, we all want money, but I don't want it bad enough to put my life in jeopardy. I'd still rather be poor - and just alive!

LIKE THE WIND....

...... The summer is just gone......

The kids start back to school today. Grade 6 for the boy, grade 4 for the girl. My granddaughter is almost 3 months old. And a cutie for sure. Time just flies by doesn't it? The song "Remember When" by Alan Jackson, woke me up out of a dead sleep. (I keep the TV on at night because I can't stand the silence.) The lawn needs mowed and the house needs cleaned. The laundry is piled high and the cat needs a good brushing. So much to do, but all I want to do is play in the rain....

SUNDAY NEWS.....

I just found out this morning that I am a brand new AUNTIE!! I have a new little Aussie Niece, who also shares the name Isabella. (Middle name that is...) So very cool!! Lots of girls arriving lately in this family! LOL! Time to start thinking about medical school graduation gift ideas. You know all of them will blow all of us out of the water! I fully expect to see some educations happening at M.I.T and Harvard in the not so distant future. Hopefully these colleges offer scholarships! LOL!
And.... the heat continues here in Kansas. Same ol' thing for at least the next week. I think the kids and I will be experimenting with some car cooking today. We'll see how fast we can bake some muffins in there. Gag. Bacon and eggs anyone?? Lemme grab the frying pan and put it on the sidewalk. This heat is just that rediculous!!
Back to work for me tomorrow, but I do love the job. I got to taste about 10 different kinds of new liquors the other night. And I got paid. INSANE!! (I just took a sip of each one - no DUI's for me!!)
The back to school shopping has begun again. I started with some school supplies, and next week we will be working on clothes. Luckily most of the summer stuff is on sale or clearance, and we will pick stuff up as we go along. The list for both kids this year includes flash drives and ear buds. Stupid. Let's just stick to crayons ok??
Anyhow, it's time for me to get some laundry on the line before it gets too nasty out there. Have a great Sunday ya'll!!