RELIEF FROM DEPRESSION

My two little superstar fishers!! All entered and ready for the fishing tournament!

My son - who can now cast all by himself - and is pretty good at it I might add!

Daddy and daughter - discussing the proper way to cast and reel. Such a sweet photo of them together. I have one similar to this of myself and my own Daddy.

At the end of the tournament, neither one of the kids had caught a thing, but as a family we had a great time together. Riley won a new fishing reel, and Shane won a fishing stool to take with him on all his future fishing trips. Both kids got a big ol' pack of gooky ick worm lures as well. From there we headed down to Main Street for the big concert and grabbed some yummy carnival food - you know - the brats and smoked beef, and then of course we got conned into buying the kids those silly light up lei's made out of silk flowers! The concert was awesome of course, then it was off in search of the staple of cotton candy. We got to the stand just as they were packing it up for the night, and all the kids were happy campers! I can't tell you how good it felt to just escape all the garbage that seems to have come down on us lately. As far as PPHead and I go, it's always the same. Things are fine until we get home and are alone in the same room.....

FEELING BEAT DOWN TODAY...

First we lost the pool - our biggest source of cooling off around here in the hot Kansas heat.....

Then last night we had a batch of horrible storms move through that had wind gusting at 100 miles an hour. My garden is pretty much destroyed this morning, though most of my tomato plants seem like they will be ok. I am just feeling like no matter what I do, I can't win. All I wanted to do this summer was have fun with my kids in the pool and work on a good garden. I just want to cry thinking about all the hard work that has been put in to making our house a home, only to have it torn down again. Not to mention the money we spent to get it there.

Why can't we ever get there? When will it be our turn to have things just go well?

OH YES I AM!

All of the past months boredom has brought on a new bright idea from the stupid center of my brain. I decided in one second that I - am going to learn how to sew. I picked up some cheap fabric and a pattern to make Rye a new little summer outfit. I figured it couldn't possibly be all that difficult - I mean I passed algebra for shits sake! But sewing it seems, has a math all its own. So I called my momma....

She told me not to touch anything until she can get over here. Don't cut patterns and by all means don't touch the fabric. She told me to find an old shirt and practice ripping out stitches. She asked me just how I intended to sew without a machine. I said with a needle and thread. She started laughing hysterically, told me to REALLY practice using the stitch ripper, and that she would see me bright and early on Monday morning - she was still giggling at me when she hung up the phone!! Maybe I should have gotten an easier pattern??

I just figured with the way things are going in this world, that I should probably learn how to sew. Plus I think I have some really cute ideas for clothes for Rye, and I want to dress her up while she still likes it! At this point she is a VERY girly girl, and I doubt that will last much past third grade, so I want to enjoy doing girly things for her while I can.

It can't be THAT hard can it???

SICK OF INSIDE THE HOUSE

BLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!

I am taking my children and getting the hell out of here for the day!! Goin to the park, goin to the store, going wherever the wind blows me.

Byyyeee you stuffy house!!

COTTONWOOD TREES SUCK

It is so utterly boring here, I spent half the morning sticking Dymo labels to everything in my house. Why not get organized right? There is still not enough room in here for anything, it's just a matter of rearranging things to look like there is. Fun Fun.
I think I am going to roam around town this evening and try to get some photographing going on. There are a few cool things I have seen lately but didn't have the time to stop and snap the pic. I have just got to get out of the freakin house before I chew my arm off.
Halie got her first paycheck of the summer yesterday, but can't cash it anywhere cuz her ID expired. She's not in a great mood either.
The pool is full of cotton, and I could stand out there all day long skimming it out, but would never be finished. I have a hugemongo cottonwood tree in my yard and it's just blowing away. It looks light it snowed here. *sigh*

HO HUM DAY BLEH...

Yes the rain is good, but seriously already. The farmers aren't able to harvest the wheat crops, and we aren't able to enjoy the pool! Halie and I even got new swimwear for the season and for the first time in a hundred years I kinda like my suit. Go figure. It's pretty dull and cloudy here today, not real hot, not cold by any means - just windy. As usual.
I'm feeling very restless, but I don't feel like doing the same old laundry and dishes and vacuuming either. Which by the way - we just purchased a brand new freaking washing machine like 3 weeks ago and it already broke!! Unbelievable. It was still in the dang box when we got it home too. I don't know why we have so much bad luck with washers but it seems like we can not win no matter what we do. Luckily it has an in home warranty thing on it, so a repair guy came out and had to put a new pump in it yesterday. He was even surprised at that being busted. I guess that was supposed to be my excitement for the week. Yay.

FATHERS DAY FUN

My Daddy and my brother. We made nice.

Daddy has a little monkey on his back!

I started tin-foiling the house. I ran out of tin-foil. There's my brother again.

We had a good meal together, Halie and I did all the cookin except the grilling part. PPHead had to do that. The kids were all pretty good and it was really nice to spend some time together with my family. Oh the stories you hear at family get-togethers! Something about Mexico and a pack of wild Chihuahuas......

PAIN IN THE SHOULDER

I don't know what in the world I did to my shoulder, but I am in the worst pain I have been in since childbirth. I took a fist full of ibuprofen and I'm hoping it will kick in soon. There is no way I can get any sleep tonight, because no matter how I try to lay down or situate myself, I can not get comfortable. Even this typing hurts like hell, but I don't know what else to do with myself. So I blog and hope it takes my mind off the pain. Except I am writing about the pain so then it makes me think about the pain which hurts and is an all around pain, period. Have you ever been in so much pain you felt like you were gonna vomit? Yeah - I'm there. Seriously. So I am going to sign out now, and leave you with a helpful place to go if you are looking for an auto insurance quote. Just click the highlighted words silly. Ok yes I have officially lost my freakin mind.... It huuuuuuurts!!!!!

Oh yeah - up there is one of the photos I took last night at the fireworks display for the Salt Festival. Ok bye bye.

PULLING OUT MY HAIR

Ok so.... How is anyone supposed to lose weight with every dang weekend containing a cookout or family get together or festival?? I am trying so insanely hard to BE GOOD!! This weekend for Father's Day, my family is coming over and Daddy wants peach cobbler - OMG yummy! Just say nooooooo!! Of course I will make it for him but jeez louieeez! I still haven't found the best diet pills for me with all the medications I take. I don't want to screw up my parts, but I have such a horribly low metabolism anymore that it's ridiculous. I can't win. AND YES I am getting some exercise and eating my breakfast and all that good for me stuff. I guess I am just frustrated. I am losing, but it's incredibly slow. Now my pants either fall off me when I walk, or there's the ones in my closet from years past that just sit there taunting me.
Screaming - ya hear me?? URGGGGH!!

I LOVE HER SOUL

Today is Rye's last day with long hair. She has never had a "real" haircut before where any actual amount was cut off. It's always been a little trim, and once it was about 2 inches off the back to keep her hair healthy.

She asked to have her hair cut so she could donate it to the Locks Of Love.
I love her tiny little soul and her very big big heart.

I don't know if it was the show about St. Jude, or hearing all the talk about Carol passing away from leukemia, but somehow she knew that the cancer medicines made people lose their hair. Now she wants to help who she can relate to best - other little girls.

STORMS STORMS ALL AROUND.....

So the storms keep coming as usual, every year around this time we get nothing but yuck weather. I guess I never cared as much until we got the pool. Now I feel like I need to stay up all night and day babysitting the thing to make sure it doesn't pop open and die. Last summer we had so much fun in it once we were able to actually use it. So far this summer - nada. I been in it once to clean it, and once to patch holes from the hail. Now I need to get in and clean it again because it has rained and rained and left a mess of dirt inside. Can't win.
Has anyone ever tried Phentermine as a weight loss aid?? I am weighing a few options but I still have to check every one of them against my already long med list. I don't need any weird side effects and I hate to feel funny, so just wondering. I've dropped enough weight that none of my pants fit anymore, but I still have so far to go. So far....

RAIN IN THE BRAIN DRAIN

Does anyone else ever get those nasty gut twitters that make you want to just run out and scream as loud as you can to no one? My guts hurt. My brain is on a constant spin mode - I don't know why. Too many little things make this big shit pile inside me I guess, and I don't know how to fix it. I want to run away, find some hotels in las vegas to stay in, and just party till I feel better. No it never solved anything before, but it was a hell of a lot of fun while it lasted. I think some of it is that I can't find a job that matches my degree. Not around here at least. I just feel trapped. Tied up. Bound and gagged. I have so much to do, so much I want to do, but so many other things that have to be done first. For now I just want the spinning to stop....

UHHHHMMMM OK THEN.....

Hmm. So maybe I should just take another pill? Trippin a little. I can't tell if I am overreacting, having some anxiety issues, or seeing things correctly. Heart argues with mind. Heart always seems to win. Even if it's wrong. But I can't help how I feel.

FIRST PICK AT THE GARDEN!

YAY! I did some experimental picking from the garden this morning early, and this is what I got me!! A few new potatoes and two little green onions. I have one big ol yeller pepper that is almost ready, but not quite. TONS of tomatoes growing now too. If the weather does me good, I should have a bountiful harvest for sure!

Since there wasn't any point in even asking the landlord to replace the central air system, we put in a couple of window units to see how that would work. So far so good, and yesterday the temp here was about 95. Let's hope they work when it's 110 out! If not - there's always the pool!

KIDS AND SMORES....

They actually licked their plates clean - then Rye says: "Mommy, I don't have any chocolate!" I'm thinking - "Uhhhhh yeah you do - all over your entire body." Who knew a kid could get so dirty with a piece of chocolate, a graham cracker, and one single marshmallow?

Today was spent in the garden again, and we also got the sand ready to set up the pool. Of course it is supposed to rain tomorrow, so I don't know if we will set it up just yet.

I actually have tomatoes on the vines already! I really wasn't expecting them to come in so soon. It seems like every other year it's the end of June or beginning of July before we get anything. I'm not complaining - just perplexed!

Have you ever heard of a cat tree? I have never heard of such a thing in my life - but apparently they make them! If I were able to have a kitty kitty - it would be spoiled and have one to play on. To bad they don't make them big enough for grown ups!!